anya's digital journal

Welcome. This part of the site has yet to be fully fleshed out. I'm debating with myself on making this a simple chronologically organized collection of personal writings, or a more fledged and complex blog. For now, it will remain the former. I still have plans for a music blog and I'm not yet sure how I would integrate it if I created a separate whole blog. If I do turn this into something more complex, this page will be archived.
--12/16/2024--

random music thought

the more weird your music taste is, the less fun it is to talk to other people about it.

20 december 2024

"the boy with the heart of a girl"

gender didn't matter to me when i was 10 years old because i was comfortable in my androgyny. there was joy in getting assumed as a girl by strangers. i would've never thought it would have left me. i never paid it any attention in the first place. it gets harder and harder to preserve femininity as i move towards adulthood. it does hurt. i wish i could go back. not only to experience my childhood again in a body i'm comfortable with, but also to tell 10 year old me what my feelings really meant. maybe then i could've transitioned before this was all so stigmatized; before my life, my safety, and my mental health became a political debate. maybe my mom would've believed me then.

19 december 2024

anya-fm 1.0

The core parts of the site are now finished.

16 december 2024